I like blogging more than facebooking. woot woot. if only I could figure out how to properly post my mobile pics . headaches. xoxo

Are things getting done?

Between applying for grad school, working and trying to maintain my own selfish goals- I find myself applying to FSU instead of going to UNC for my prereqs. Headaches. I can't wait until all this paper work is completed and my transcripts have been sent. The reason as to why switch to FSU is simple, its literally 15 minutes away from my house and I can maintain my work schedule. The parking pass for UNC alone is $500. Forget that. I'm super excited about life today. The past few days I've been running on steam and hence developed a terrible mood. However, today life is great. Life is waiting for the perfect moment to let the the sweetness unfold. I saw a quote the other day that I could appreciate: If a thought is not worth bringing up in 5 seconds, don't mention it. To me, this pertains to how our society values our social networking voice and how in essence we are dumbing down ourselves by paying particular attention to useless trivialities. It makes sense. I've been on Facebook before they opened their doors to the rest of the world, and the change in focus/paradigm as to how and why people use FB has changed dramatically. I'm not going to spill my future thesis here, but I've noticed that I'd be happier if we switched back! My friends don't call me anymore. My friends don't invite me to parties personally, it's always a facebook invite on an event page or a text message. I don't like the way the future of social interaction is shaping up. Hopefully I'll be dead before it gets worst. That is the positive note. Now , let me see if I can upload some iphone photos for you!

Lost things are gone forever

Can't help but shake off a few ideas in my head, except I never learned to do such a thing. I'm constantly reminded that there is something missing in my life. This is not a deep and personal reflection of how I discovered that this life is meaningless,lol, yet a gripe of cherished objects that I'll never recover. I'm writing this post in hopes that letting my frustrations out will stop my brain from obsessing where I put them?? So the missing list of items that I'm whining about consists of a few of my paintings and drawings. Not much to the average joe, but these were my prized wall decor. Oh well for that. The pretty colors, the crazy styles, the intensity in the eyes of the tigers haha all gone. Forever gone.

With them gone, I guess I have more room for innovation and change. Time to put up something new on my walls, maybe even a time for me to change and reinvent myself.

As of late, I've been exploring job options taking my time to tweek my resume to match the needs of every job ad. I'm tired of doing this, wish things were simpler...

Well I'm out to make ham and bean soup. Xoxo